Atrial Fibrillation
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I realize that I’ve yet to specify my ailment. Probably cowardice or at least hoping that silence will keep it from being true.
Atrial fibrillation is a way of saying my heart don’t got rhythm. My blood’s slovenly percolation leaves me more likely to have a stroke.
I breathe air processed by a device that purifies and concentrates the mix. And take Coumadin - one of the most nigglingly adjusted, more worrisome of medications. This leaves me feeling breakable, almost crumbly. I’ve lost faith with my body, fearing to trust my lungs continued functioning.
The immediate anxiety isn’t all that bad. It is mostly a lack of belief in my future. Not being able to sleep for longer than two hours at a stretch is the worst effect. Hopefully the cumulative defective sleep will eventually knock me out for several hours.
Comments
Talk to your doctor if you continue to have trouble sleeping. For serious.
Posted by: Dev | July 30, 2008 3:58 PM
My sleep has been irregular since my early 20s. The latest phase is an expression of how upset I am. I do have some pills I can take but hate to be dependent on psychiatric medication.
Posted by: Richard | July 30, 2008 7:04 PM
Richard: Big hug..with the promise of a devious torment/torture when you are better. You will recover. You will not.. let this get the best of you. Please get the rest you need. When you need to vent.. We are here for you.
Posted by: Amy | August 7, 2008 5:38 AM
Amy,
Certainly a promise that I want to live up to. An awful lot to ask of a top, hope I can be lucky to find one.
Posted by: Richard | August 7, 2008 6:53 AM