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When I discerned the lustability of other males I was attracted strictly to guys my own age or younger. Particularly the latter. This was actually what was in my mind when I wrote my prior post.
Sex was terrifically important to me for a time. Not just the pleasure of the act but the romance. Romance has been my downfall.
I feared that as I aged my taste in other males would remain static. I met older gay men who chased only after much younger guy. Youth that reciprocated the attention only if it were to their advantage.
Being pathetic in that fashion was frightening. I had this laughably foolish notion that my life would end at thirty. Commonplace nonsense that people surely still experience.
It was a relief the first time I looked at a man with gray in his hair and thought how good-looking!
Thankfully I grew older without becoming pathetic, at least not pathetic because I was older. With surprised delight I discovered that there are gay guys looking for older men. I never pursued this but never fought it off.
I know how sexually aggressive some very young gay boys can be. But I admit to wishing NAMBLA did not exist. These men are encouraging each other in the impossible.
I feel deeply sorry for older men who are attracted exclusively to younger males. Even very much younger. Like any other sexual orientation it can’t be changed only suppressed.