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Surely we aren't sexual at four. Heck, maybe we are. Lassie is probably still a recognizable name. At least a couple of versions have been in rerun recently and there is or was a recent recension of the TV show.
Jeff, Lassie's first boy pal is one of the earliest things I remember from TV. His mysterious vanishment, replacement confused me and left me unhappy when I was a little kid (whether during the show's first run or as a very early syndicated rerun I don't know).
Unclearly I felt his replacement was inferior. I wondered where Jeff had gone. (Caveat for morons: at the time I'm writing of I was younger than Jeff.) I doubt my fond regret was lust (unlike Giton). Even a child can appreciate na´ve formal qualities; Jeff's simple face was pretty.
But halfway between when I first saw him on TV and now I couldn't help but feel startled by how perfectly he embodied the qualities I first found appealing in other guys: blonde, variously pouty, na´ve, forthright - always symmetrical. There was an erotic harmony but not lust - if you can grasp the distinction. There's a wonderful aesthetic space where the beautiful face is more like a kindness, a Platonic ideal flickering in the cave than a mere bodily obsession.
Never to dismiss the flesh's hunger. But ( - and this was only meant to be a short note about the picture - ) there are a couple of ways in which I most strongly feel a disconnect with most people. The first, humorlessly, is that few people scrutinize their experience as a biologist (with no vested commercial interest) would a double blind, placebo-controlled laboratory experiment. Second: lovely bodies are possessed of the same disinterested seductions the mathematician sees in an elegant proof, or any of us in a rose or sunset.
Started as a quickie reminiscence but ended as a satisfying rant.
Do you have any idea of your earliest experiences of beauty, of sexual attraction?
I'm not a pederast
Since I rarely criticize anyone's sexuality, I'll just say that I've never wanted to fuck a sunset or sodomize a rose. I did exchange a couple of emails with a guy on the theme: