Charles turns 29 tommorow.
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I'm hoping he doesn't get too upset. Charles still finds aging terrifying. Since my next birthday will find me at forty-eight it isn't easy to sympathize with his sense of impending decreptitude.
A little less than three decades ago as a young guy with a taste for even younger guys I dreaded the idea of turning thirty. Too deeply enamored with pale and frail jailbait I feared my own erotic appeal would evaporate when I got that old.
There was a tremor, maybe more of a ripple when I turned twenty-five. Mostly because I couldn't disallow that I was an adult. I've never been able to match myself with the word. Even now with a mortgage, partner and responsibilities "Mr. Lee" feels more cutting than respectful.
Having learned long ago that most older people are childish extending me reflexive esteem just because I haven't gotten myself killed yet seems preposterous.
I forgot to worry about aging. The ineluctable biological failures are terrifying. I won't be surprised if June 8, 2004 doesn't bring a few chills down my spine.Warning: include(/home/edifying/public_html/pansexualsodomite//common/individual.php): failed to open stream: No such file or directory in /home/richardlee/domains/pansexualsodomite.org/public_html/archives/my_life_is_an_open_blog/charles_turns_29_tommorow.php on line 79 Warning: include(): Failed opening '/home/edifying/public_html/pansexualsodomite//common/individual.php' for inclusion (include_path='.:/usr/lib/php') in /home/richardlee/domains/pansexualsodomite.org/public_html/archives/my_life_is_an_open_blog/charles_turns_29_tommorow.php on line 79